Finding My Way

I want to first start by saying I grew up in the church. My life took an awful turn when my grandmother (the one who introduced me to God) passed. I didn't understand why God had taken her from me knowing the extent of my love for her. I suffered many years cursing God for everything that had taken place after that. At the age of 17 I met my first "real" boyfriend and felt God had blessed me despite my blasphemous attitude. Needless to say, I was in an abusive relationship, on the verge of death 3 times. I suffered deep depression at the hands of my family and boyfriend. All the while, I felt a pulling on my spirit a yearning for a familiar sense of peace. God had never left my side. He was the one carrying me all along. I am crying as I write this because His mercy is just so incomprehensible. I didn't understand why he continued to love me despite my unloving character. I wound up having a baby with that boyfriend which caused a drastic change in my attitude and life. I was so appreciative for the tribulations because God was molding me for my now husband. He is a God fearing man and a wonderful father. I can't explain the joy that I have now. I have a wonderful family who loves to serve God and prays together. I know there will be trials to come but God has grounded me in such a way that I know we will be able to endure the storms. That is why every chance that I get I lift God's name and proclaim his glory because it is He and He alone that is worthy to be praised. He knows all and sees all and He pruned me into a wonderful person to carry out His will and I trust Him wholeheartedly.
ERB