I Surrender All

My testimony is about how I decided to give my all to Christ.  

      A few years ago, I decided to live on my own because I thought I had all the answers to life's questions. I turned my back on my God and followed my own desires. For four years, I indulged in every earthly pleasure imaginable. While doing this, God kept begging me to turn my life around and come back to Him. He tried to show me that even though Satan was making things look like fun, I was really just hurting myself. I closed my ears to everything  God was trying to reveal to me and decided to continue with following the path that Satan had made so attractive to me. After a while, things didn't seem so great anymore and I started moving on a downward spiral. The things that Satan makes so attractive to you are really things that he has set to be your down fall.  And boy did I fall!!! You may not know this but sometimes, God lets us experience the pain that comes with falling flat on our face because after all His attempts to talk to us with our refusal to listen, pain is the only way that we will learn.  He does not want us to go through this and it hurts Him to see us in pain more than it hurts us, however, it is the only way that we will turn around and call on His name and started to depend on and serve HIM. 

    When I fell, and lost everything that I had (My girlfriend, car, apartment, job, bank account, etc), I thought that it would be better for me to die than to continue living. I felt that without those material things, my life had no purpose. I asked myself, "why am I on this earth?" I even thought of suicide, but thankfully, before I came to that conclusion, I decided to seek God first.  I prayed to God and said "If you give purpose to my life, I will do whatever it is that you want me to do and go wherever it is that you send me." Literally the next day, God gave me to tools to begin building the ministry that I now have (which gives great purpose to my life) and it is solely dedicated  to serving him. Now, here I am, two years later, still  honoring my commitment by going all over the country and talking to all who want to hear about whatever message it is that God has given to me.  I thank God for being faithful and merciful to me.

A.R